In all honesty those two words have been sat in my drafts folder for about 2 weeks, waiting for me to add to them. In truth as much as I like the idea of starting over, the idea of change scares me slightly and with the new year now here it’s time to start the process of change. That’s normally what happens on January 1st right, everyone starts there plan of action for a new year and a new start.. we are all creatures of habbit and routine even if we don’t realise we are doing it or try to deny.
However this year my plan of action is yet to come to me.
I haven’t really mapped out a route or even made a list of the things I am going to need for the journey of 2016.
Maybe I should do that, make a list, think about the future and maybe make a plan. There are so many things I want to do and have this huge fear that i’ve wasted time already trying to work things out.
The Future. Scary I know.
Fast forward to a little over a week later and a route for 2016 still has not manifested in my head let alone in written word.
So many questions have cropped up…
But why do I need a plan or list of things I want to get done?
Where do I want to be by the end of the year? in 5 years? 10 years?
This runs through my head and to be honest it makes me kinda dizzy.
I did say to someone the other day…
“I’m excited and content at the same time, the idea I have all this life in front of me but I’m happy with where I am atm… Does that make sense ?”
10 minutes later through the magic of Tumblr messenger here is what my Dear Lady from across the ocean had to say.
“It makes perfect sense – I think – you are special for recognizing this, cultivating this, peace in your heart & soul. It shows in your visions and posts, especially lately – a real soft but energized charm to what you like”
There are somethings that I want to leave in 2015 and that only came to mind in the last 24 hours of the year.
I have a tendency to have mini epiphanies most weeks so maybe making a list that dictates a whole year may not be the best thing for me personally.
Although I do have a few goals for the year which I know won’t change.
- Get to my slimming world target.
- Finish first draft of my book.
- More wifi-less days
- Do something different every month
But most importantly this year I am going to be the best version of myself, be happy…
Be the best snowflake in my flurry
Life does tend to blow us about a bit, pushes and pulls us in various directions, some wanted & some not so much and don’t get me started on the change of pace… that’s sometimes a little too much to handle.
I guess we just have to learn to roll with it or fly, change the things we can… grab hold of a bird flying against the wind, take control.
Let other things fly, if you can’t change it don’t waste energy trying.
I know it’s easy for me to say all these things and believe me sometimes I do find myself grabbing hold of something that I should have left alone… we are only human and last year I let myself clutch on to something for far too long. Opps.
I have finally let go and my god it feels good… at the moment anyway, we’ll see where my head is in a week for so, maybe a different story.
But hey, if these things were suppose to be easy to let go off I don’t think life would be much of a challenge really. Having to try that little bit harder will make you stronger, saying to yourself…
You may need your eagle wings for this one little bird
….every once in a while is no bad thing at all.
I do ramble don’t I.
I treat these posts more like conversations I would have with friends, continuous but sometimes they don’t have a plan.. hah plan.
They can be all over the place as i’m trying to work things out.. kinda raw but it’s works for me and i’m hoping you take something out of this, even if it us just one of the quotes in italics.
I hope you are all well and brought 2016 in with smiles, laughter and surrounded by people that mean the most to you.